I have friends. Lots of them. I don’t feel like any show up in the way I need them to.

Postpartum has been hard and lonely. I want a friend to come over and hold my hand. I want to cancel plans and for my friends to say “we’re coming over.” I want to feel like I can mess up and not have judgement. I want a friend who can support me.

I have friends, but not those friends. And I am lonely and sad.