“Do you feel engorged yet?” No, I’ve never felt engorged. I don’t think I’m making enough to support my baby.

“I’m so full after my baby slept all night.” My baby won’t sleep through the night because he gets hungry. Maybe it’s because he’s not getting enough food. And when he does go long stretches, I don’t feel any different in the mornings.

“My baby was born little too, but he’s a chunk now.” Mine has fallen off his weight curve.

“I’m an oversupplier, it’s so hard.” I wish I had an oversupply. At least I’d know my baby was well-fed.

“I’m a just-enougher, I pump about 6oz per pump session.” I wish I could pump 6oz. I’d be dancing around my living room if I could pump that much.

“My baby eats for about 10 minutes, it’s so inconvenient.” Mine eats for at least 30 minutes, sometimes longer, and still cries after sometimes.

“Oh he’s cluster feeding. He’s probably just growing.” Or maybe he’s not getting enough food.

“You’re definitely making enough for him, don’t worry.” Am I? Because it feels like I’m failing. It feels like everywhere I turn, everyone is feeding their babies more. My baby isn’t gaining as much weight and I’m not pumping as much. But everyone keeps telling me that I’m overreacting and my baby is getting enough and that everything is fine. It doesn’t feel fine.

Next Serve, Nicole